I’ve always thought the idea of Birth Photography was super duper cool. Whenever I’ve seen professional images from a birth I’ve been blown away. There’s something powerful about them, and oddly beautiful. I know this doesn’t even sound like me, right?
Here’s the thing though. I’ve always thought birth photography was for blonde haired skinny hippy chicks. Like the ones that wear LuLu running tights to the grocery store and somehow look really good. The ones that have unattended home births and eat their placenta. These are all totally wonderful things by the way. They JUST AREN’T ME!
I wear tights absolutely no where, my placenta is in a medical waste facility somewhere and I had all 3 of my kids in the GLORIOUS High River Hospital aka The Resort. And… I DO NOT LOOK AWESOME WHILE GIVING BIRTH!
I know this because, OH MY GOD, this is the photo of me after having Danger
Do you see what I’m saying??? That is not good. Granted, yes, I was in the process of having my second blood transfusion and was crazy swollen from all the fluids they had pumped into me in attempts to stop me from bleeding out (see why I have kids at hospitals now?). But still, in my mind this is why I didn’t hire a birth photographer - because NO ONE WANTS TO SEE THIS!
Want more proof? Epic! Much better because, dude, I remember how awful Danger’s pic was. This time around I made sure to brush my hair. Still not really the stuff dreams are made of.
When you look like this DEAR GOD why would you hire a birth photographer, right? Am I right? Plus there’s the actual giving birth. I don’t have any pictures of that from the first two but good lord baby Jesus if this is what I look like after, during can’t be pretty at all can it?
Then there’s the whole “how many people really need to see my vagina” debate. My answer, as few as humanly possible. I’m a pretty modest person.
So no, I did not intentionally hire a birth photographer.
I hired a really super rad photographer (and friend) from LA, specializing in Newborn and Birth Photography. I booked her flights based on Lennon’s due date Nov 15th and the fact that my other two kids were both born a week early. SURELY Lennon would be the same. Then her due date came and went. Then Lauren got here. Then I panicked because OH DEAR GOD she’s leaving tomorrow and I haven’t had a baby yet…
And then I started having a baby. So I figured since I paid for her flight I might as well get something out of it. Clearly the universe thought it was a fun idea.
Although it was a tiny bit weird (in my mind) explaining to the nurses that we had a photographer with us, they all thought it was cool and didn’t really seem phased.
To be honest, once things really got started she kind of hid in the corner and I pretty much forgot she was there.
And I got this…
And ultimately an amazing video. I wasn’t going to share it on here. Once again, because I’m modest, it’s personal and let’s be honest a little bit scary to show people yourself while in a hell of a lot of pain and very little clothing BUT I’m doing it anyway.
I’m doing it because I think that every mother should have this at least once to remember how damn awesome she is for bringing a human into the world via her cupid’s cupboard. Or how crazy it is that we can grow tiny people inside of us. I also think that every kid who was ever born (hint: that’s all of us) will one day find it amazing that from the moment they entered the world they were loved in a way that can’t be described using words. At least I don’t have the words to describe it anyway but I think these pictures do a damn good job.
And maybe most importantly I’m showing you because even though I have photographed births before and loved it, I was sure that birth photography and Nikki didn’t mix. That I would look AWFUL, scary even. I would want to show no one. Hell I assumed that I wouldn’t even want to look at them myself. I couldn’t have been more wrong. Instead they are currently my most valued possession.
I can’t imagine not having these images. So maybe birth photography can and should be for everyone. Maybe you just don’t know it yet. I didn’t.
Oh yeah, it’s Tuesday! I almost forgot! Did you love the song from L-Dub’s birth story? If so check out Amy Seeley.
Here’s a live performance of Surprisingly So.
AMY SEELEY//Surprisingly So
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